Fast cars, fast food, and fast women... the story of a rodeo clown!

As i sit here right now everyone is downstairs at the awards for access broadway. Before i left i took a look around and thought of how it will kill me to leave this for college. All the friends i've made and all the girls and excitement the whole world and experience of it. I know i have a year to go but that year is the year with all "the lasts" and i will probably cry at each one. I will still be able to come back and watch but it is not the same as physically being there each week and knowing everything that goes on. I'm at such a hard place in life and i really need to find a way to move forward. I'm not trying to be sad or sentimental, but honest and insightful for those who have never had a family with 400 people in it.

i can't believe myself sometimes, everything i want is right in front of me and i blow it.tomorrow i am going to star the raw food diet for the millionth time in hopes of losing 40 pounds by the beginning of school. this is a completely obtainable goal but i need to start.

.....Can you see me, floating above your head as you lay in bed thinking about everything that you did not do, cause saying i love you has nothing to do with meaning it....

.........You take my hand just to give it back............

Basically I've been getting ready for school and all that crap...but I was reading the newspaper and thease two brazilian guys went to liverpool for this annual beatle thing, but i guess they were doing something suspicious and then were asked about random beatle things to see if they were truly there because they liked the beatles,not to do something criminal. First they asked them who Yoko Ono was and they had no idea then the brazilians were asked which beatles were dead and they said ringo starr. LOLOLOLOLOLOLOL, i found that story hysterical. Anyways me and katie have the house to ourselves this weekend so we are spending most of our time online. Yesterday the blaneys had their bonfire so we couldn't let the dogs out so we dealt with them and listened to all the people next door yealling and screaming like banshees! man i hate them. OOOOOOOOOHHHHHHH i forgot my parents are upstate and whilst there yesterday they found a cat and were keeping it and I named him Irving, I don't know why i did but when i think about a starving cat I think it wuld be a starving cat named Irving. Ok so tomorrows orientation so i gotta call Amanda later to figure out where we're meeting. ok thats all for now!
TA-TA,
Alissa

omg! damn you vh1 naming the beatles number 12 on the greatest pop culture icons of all time! I cannot believe that! but i guess thats whatcan happen or something like that....... ok then my day went pretty good i went to brittanys play thing and that went well and yesterday i went thrifting w/bethany.I also made sophia a scooby doo t-shirt woo hoo! But the highlight of my day was going to Marie's tagsale (maryellens godmother) and she showed me the tilly foster mine in his backyard, it really is fascinating it was a mine that when men were digging for iron hitwater and it filled up and killed them, the thing is 755 feet straight down, ok i found it fascinating... u might find it dull.

I have officialy finished my first summer reading book "Thi Lullaby", which I am happy to say I did enjoy. If you ever get the time u must read it! ok so yesterday I went tomy grandmas house and had dinner and to my surprise when I got there she gave me this great beatle poster she found :)! It was just all of us-my dad cause he was upstate and Jen and Kelly so things went quite smoothly. But as for today everything was going fine until I was moving furniture in my room to try to plug in my dvd player and i hurt my back it was an I've fallen and I can't get up moment but i pullled myself together to get upstirs my mom said that it was my siatic nerve-whatever the hell that is-but I can tell ya it hurts like a bastard! SoI had plenty of tim to lay around... which i am still currently doing as i type... and i got to thinking, god must not be a woman or man he just might be a drag queen i meen it would explain alot of stuff like tropical fish forinstance and birds-they have feathers-only a drag queen!

ok so basically this whole big thing happened from te 12-the 14. first off y grandmother gave me money for losing weight, which i thought my brother said something to her like i as mad that i wasnt getting money, which i wasnt. So.... i was gonna give the money back....my mom went and said to her that i was going to give it back and she thought i was mad but my mom explained that i wasnt upset, but i still felt bad. later that day she called and i explained i wasnt upset and then everything was fine. The next day i went to the flower shop and sent her some daisys (im so great!). ok the next day i went to the mall and bought motley crue underwear.lol. ok and then i cleaned my room for many many days and i talked to amanda a few times. last night i went to the mall and today i went to barnes and noble and i bought a book of 7000 rude sayings and thats it...

i have no idea what to think of Cristina anymore soill just not pass a judgement on her or make up my mind on my opinion. But ayway i will however wish our boy ringo a belated happy 63rd bday, man u never realize how old a beatle is until someone says their age, i still think of all of them (yes john and george too) as being young but thats beyond pathetic, isnt it??? oh well. Today was definatley not eventful i went to GNC thats about it. LAst night lauren sent me her and stasis version of believe, i liked the album title "your mother", lauren does a great cher.i meen its like an exagerated cher which makes it more hysterical. tomorrow should be just as boring as tday so ill be sure t fll u all in on the ass akingly dull details!

ok well I'm gonna skip everything you guys missed and start with yesterday. So pretty normal fourth of July if I were in a dramatic made for t.v. movie or something like that on lifetime. First off my mom left early when I was out with Bethy buying cake mix so on te way home we saw her and i go out but that left mewith no means of talking to lauren whowas supposed to come with us, being that my sister was driving her dad probably wouldn't let her go anyways. When we got there things were going pretty well untilthere was this huge blowout over my grandma saying that Critina slouched, she wasn't offended and her feelings weren't hurt, but my uncle who had had too much to drink got upset and was yelling and then left the house and went to his friend bily's house. And of course my aunt jen had to get involved and only made the situation worse and she was the one trying tomke everyone drink. One good thing that came out of the situation was that I got to talk to Cristina and get to know her and little better and vice-versa. I think that both of our views of each other have changed and surprise surprise we even share some opinions on people (COUGH COUGH)!


As for today I went to the flea market and picked up some good crap. Cristina and uncle Charlie were supposed to come but they didn't probably because Jen was going, no not PROBABLY, strike that. And as for now I'm home.

GET THIS-THEY ALL ARE PAYING FAT BASTARD TO LOOSE WEIGHT. WHAY DON"T THEY JUST GUARANTEE HIM THAT HE'LL LIVE TO SEE THE AGE OF 20!

ok so basically today was a boring day, not much happened. I found out that christine (aka home depot) is going to the dance, that should be interesting. But off that topic, Amanda is coming over Friday and then weare going to the mall on Saturday. Betany is going for a job interview today for like some kind of home depot/ home thingy store. Ineed a job soooo bad im poor in a ghetto fabulous way.Ok im done! i g2g check GBB! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MR.MCCARTNEY, HAPPY BIRTHDAY 2 YOU!!!, and many more

ok so basically today was a boring day, not much happened. I found out that christine (aka home depot) is going to the dance, that should be interesting. But off that topic, Amanda is coming over Friday and then weare going to the mall on Saturday. Betany is going for a job interview today for like some kind of home depot/ home thingy store. Ineed a job soooo bad im poor in a ghetto fabulous way.Ok im done! i g2g check GBB